elle jay*

well my ma finally left this morning, yay! so i have a nice long weekend without her. granted my dad is still here, but he gets up early for work, is out all day and goes to bed early. so basically her and i have the house to ourselves. we got up kinda late today [...]

and we have a winner! the logo is complete, lol. and photoshop is my friend again. it didnt crash once while i was working on it. i even taught myself how to make the particular background i was going for. the finished logo looks.. amazing! ;D im quite pleased with my work and from his [...]

so, my day started off fucking with graphics for his website. ive made about nineteen versions of the logo. hes anal, lol. its ok tho, i like it. ive learned more about photoshop from working on stuff for him than i ever would have imagined. ive had the stupid program for about a year, maybe [...]

i feel like i have no friends and it makes me feel lonely. i mean.. i know i for sure have two. besides that, im pretty much on my own. i dont really hang out with anyone. i dont go out much. i text and get no replies, i call and get voicemails or the [...]

i really dont know what my problem is. im not in a good mood, but im not in a bad mood. im in some sort of an emotional limbo. im trying to pull myself out of it by working on my art. which i did today and i finally used my iphone as an ipod. [...]

today i spent part of the day pissed off. not at everything, but at my mom and some other family members. it was what some would say is a stupid reason, but in my head.. at the time i was convinced it was a valid reason. because i was angry, i was bitchy to most [...]

i finally got my new glasses! i love em.. unfortunately, they will never be this clean again. it seems that no matter what i do, even when my hands are no where near my glasses.. i end up with a fingerprint on them. its never fuckin fails either. honestly, id rather wear contacts. i tried [...]

a hug. its the only thing i want right now. i just want to physically feel close to someone. i feel like crying. i just want a hug, i want to feel the warmth of someone as they wrap their arms around me and whisper in my ear that everything will be alright.. maybe [...]

so, i just went thru all my posts and finally put tags on all my stuff. i skimmed over them as i did and finally came across my to-do list. i read over it and i got to cross of two things! i know that doesnt sound like much on a list of 20 or [...]

i want a lot of things, but i dont necessarily need them all. in fact, i know i dont. so i know that im trying to lose weight.. yet today i had a reeses peanut butter cup. why? cause i wanted it. its a mindset i need to get rid of. i didnt need it, [...]

yep. four twenty.. and here i am with nothing to celebrate with. sad times. however! i should have some on wednesday, yay!! also, i should be getting my new glasses tomorrow or wed, i cant wait. our friends from ireland are leaving, all except one. the fun one, lol. i cant wait for the house [...]

ill build a fort from every blanket in the cabinet
as long as you promise that youll keep comin back to it.
remember a long time ago when youd grab all the blankets you could find, maybe a couple chairs or some piece of furniture you could move, some pillows and then begin building your fort? anything [...]

technically i missed a post, BUT technically.. i didnt.. i got caught up djing. i like to pass my time sometimes by spending time in a virtual world called secondlife. i host, dj, manage a club, build and i have a shop. the club i work at hasnt been open for a while now and [...]

..to crocheting. yea, thats right. i said it. i worked on it almost all afternoon and night. i finally learned how to do a double chain stitch.. kinda. im still working on it. but now its not so foreign to me. i must have crocheted and unraveled my work about 20 or 30 times. and [...]

its one of those nights when it seems like everything was getting me down. i was thinking to much into things that already happened and its too late to change the past. drinking tonight didnt help that though. i know i fucked up and i know that its unfair to vent to him about certain [...]