its 11:11. i have no idea what to write about tonight. ive been working on my origami some more. ive mastered the origami balloon. tomorrow i start my volunteering at an animal shelter. my list is slowly being conquered.. im kinda of in a blah mood at the moment. im not happy, but im not sad/depressed. im just kinda.. here. im in the mood to go out, but theres no chance of that. i am kind of excited about playing with little kittens and puppies tomorrow tho. maybe i can convince my ma to bring one home.. she would probably say no, but its worth a shot!
i think i need to look for a new caregiver. right now one of my best friends helps me. its awesome to have my friend be able to help me, but at the same time its hard. i feel like she doesnt view it as a job, which technically, it is. but at the same time, shes my best friend and its hard to speak up and be like.. no, this is how it is. i dont want it to hinder our friendship, at the same time tho.. if i tell her im going to look for someone new to help me.. it might cause an argument. im not sure what i should do. i need things done at certain times. i need to be on somewhat of a routine for getting up and such,. and it just doesnt seem to be working with her. ill figure something out.