this was written at least 10 years ago, but a lot of it still rings true with how i feel to this day.
my life sucks. i hate everything about it. i especially hate the fact that im in a wheelchair. it sucks. i want to be normal. i dont want to be judged because of the chair. i want to be able to hang out at my friends houses. it sucks hanging out at mine all the time. people get sick of it, i get sick of it. i want to walk. i want to dance. i want to sit on the couch and cuddle with my boyfriend without having to go thru multiple steps to get there. i want to go online and not have people stop talking to me because i tell them about my situation. i dont want to have to worry if the place that i want to go to is accessible. i just want to go. i want to walk up the stairs. i want to run through the sprinkler. i want to walk in the sand. i want to skydive. i want to bungee jump. i want to go on a long road trip. i want to play ding-dong ditch. i want to run. i wanna tackle someone and tickle them to death. i want to be able to shower and get dressed without any help. i want to be able to sneak out of the house and not get caught because of the lift. i want to get caught sneaking back in the house at four in the morning because i feel asleep in my boyfriends arms at his house. i want to be able to storm out of the house when im mad and speed off in my car. i want to drive. i want to play volleyball. i want to be on the track team. i want to be a volunteer at camp not a camper. i want to be able to play the guitar. i want to be happy with myself. i want to be able to look in the mirror and not be disgusted with what i see. i want to feel good about myself. i want to be confident with me. i want to go horseback riding. i want to have a picnic on the beach. i want to visit friends when they work the night shift at a 24 hour shop. i want to play in the rain. i want to make snow angels. i want to be able to go on a rollercoaster. i want to be able to go scuba diving. i want to rollerblade. i want to skateboard. i wanna play softball. i want to be able to see eye to eye with people. i want to be comfortable with who i am. i just wanna be normal.