i feel like i have no friends and it makes me feel lonely. i mean.. i know i for sure have two. besides that, im pretty much on my own. i dont really hang out with anyone. i dont go out much. i text and get no replies, i call and get voicemails or the number has changed. plus, a lot of them are married doing their own thing, like having babies. when i do make plans, they almost always fall thru. a lot of times if i do get invited they will call the day of like an hour beforehand.. and by that time, i cant. theres no way i can be ready to go in an hour. and im sure id have to find a ride to where ever and i cant ask my ma that soon, id have to give her some sort of a heads up.
its sad tho, that even in a virtual world like secondlife i still feel the same way. either they take forever to answer an IM, they dont respond at all or you get a busy message. if im lucky and they do answer, they are usually too busy to hang out, are already busy with something else or possibly logging off any minute. its frustrating. and i do try to find friends, but i obviously dont know where the cool places are to hang out and meet anyone. i end up in empty clubs or shops.
i dont know. i need to not focus on it. i have two of the best friends i could ever ask for.. tho one is my caregiver and the one thats pissing me off when it comes to that, lol. but besides that little bump in the road, her friendship is super important to me. and my other one is him.. and well lets face it, hes amazing both inside and out and i would be completely and totally lost without him in my life. as long as i have them, im good. :)