im so unbelievably tired. i was up again this morning at about 10:30/11. i worked on a couple different designs in photoshop for my stationery and i read for a bit before he got home from lunch. we bullshitted for a bit while i played some music in secondlife. i honestly dont remember it happening, but i totally fell asleep on him. i havent done that in ages and i mentioned that to him. he was like, “i havent been around long enough for you to do that..” it was a very valid point lol. our conversations lately have been shortened just a bit because of work or going to bed because of having to be up early. regardless of the reasons.. i fell back asleep on him lol.
im not gonna lie. i miss falling alseep on voice with him. it was always nice to fall asleep with someone or if i woke up in the middle of the night, id hear him snoring or just breathing in general and id drift back to sleep. the best was when hed roll over a certain way and the mic would be in such a spot that you could hear his heartbeat. it was a rarity for it to happen, but when it did.. it was so soothing i could pass out almost immediately.
we both ended up falling asleep tonight on voice. i had to go for a few to get ready for bed and when i got back on here the voice call had ended. sometimes i hate secondlife, lol. so now were both on here, but not on voice. kinda sucks. normally, before id call and wake him up so he could reconnect the call, but i know he was tired and i didnt wanna wake him up. im just kinda hopin he wakes up on his own and reconnects it, lol. im sure by then ill have passed out. ive already fallen asleep 3 different times while trying to type this!
today was another day without any fighting with my ma. it was also another day that passed without my friend calling me. it kinda pisses me off and i feel like if i dont call her, we arent going to talk. i just dont want to give in like that tho. especiallt knowing i didnt do anything wrong. i just wish she would realize that shes in the wrong and actually own up to it and apologize for it so this can all be in the past. who knows when thatll happen tho.. or if it will.
i got to use that scarf he got me today. i was freezing and wanted to put on something warmer. i also didnt want to have to call anyone upstairs to help me.. i tried putting on my zip up hoodie, but just didnt have the strength to do it. i sat there being cold for a good fifteen minutes before i realized i had the scarf to use. i love it. its perfect and i dont need help putting it on, which is even better. also, it smells like that cologne i got him.. another plus. its seriously my favorite scarf and not just cause he got it for me.. i love the material and the color, too.
i seriously keep passing out while i type this and have to keep rereading it to know where my train of thought was going. i think its about time i just go to bed, lol. i have to be up in a bit for his morning wake up call too.. so sleeping before that will be nice. as for me for tomorrow.. im going to keep up with the stationery stuff, maybe work on some art, read.. and i dont know what else. its memorial day, so there might be a bbq.. im not sure tho. oh! and.. just one more day til i get my stuff from nutrisystem! yay!.. thats what else ill try to get done tomorrow, having my dad move that exercise thing up to my room.. hopefully hell do that. who knows if he will tho. ;p