so, today was a pretty good day. he came up with a master plan and we will be working on a business together.. and in turn we will be rich! lol, at least thats the plan, but we both know it wont start out smoothly. i do get to make logos for it tho! yay! even tho theres no name yet, we have no idea what the business is and most importantly have no idea what well be selling/promoting. lol, we are off to a great start! at least we have a start tho, hes taking the course for it.. so hopefully soon we will know what the fuck we are doing. regardless, we make a great fuckin team, so im sure we will end up successful.
also, today i registered for nutrisystem. i still have to complete my order, but im doing that tomorrow. i picked out all my food and filled out the registration stuff today. i need to get a hold of the guy i chatted with earlier so i can finish my order. the reason im even doing this is because i was flipping thru a magazine today and there was an article about a woman in a wheelchair with muscular dystrophy that was overweight and she had tried a bunch of different things to lose the weight. eventually, she saw the ad for nutrisystem and went for it. according to the article she lost 15lbs in the first six weeks and a total of 100lbs over eighteen months. i have high hopes for myself with this. especially knowing she did it without being able to exercise.
i plan on exercising tho. im having that workout thing we have in the basement brought up to my room this week. if my dad would get it up here already. i asked him last week to do it and its still not done. speaking of my dad.. i had it out with him today. i was talking to my ma about this diet im doing and right away he started in with his smartass tone and negativity. i told him i didnt wanna hear it cause hes basically insensitive about the whole topic. its not a fucking surprise. i know im fat. ive known this. its not like i havent tried in the past to lose weight cause i have. more times than i can count to be honest. seriously tho, i want this more than ive wanted anything in a long time. i know its what i need. i know ive talked about all this before.. but whatever.
i just know that in eighteen months.. maybe a little more, maybe a little less, i will be a completely different person. not just physically either. losing this weight will completely help with my self-esteem. im sure it might even help to get me out and about more. ill be able to do more things for myself or have people help me without feeling self conscious about it. plus, as a reward after i get to my goal weight.. im getting a tattoo. a lotus blossom.. which i think is the perfect symbol for what ill be going thru.. what i have gone thru and what i will continue to go thru. they grown in the mud and muck.. and turn into something beautiful. ive gone thru hard times and continue to and just like the flower at the bottom of the muddy, icky pond (where i feel i have been and still am) ill rise above it all and show the world that even i can be beautiful.
anyway, for tomorrow i have a few things planned.. nothing too exciting. well, i take that back. i should be getting some herbal refreshments tomorrow, thats always exciting lol. aside from that, i need to go to the bank.. call the nutrisystem guy.. work on some stationery ideas.. read.. and i dont know what else. its suppsoed to be in the 80s tomorrow, so i will definitely be outside during the day and get a little sunshine into my system.. i know i need that big time. as far as anything else.. i dont know.. but im sure youll read about it tomorrow if i come up with something else. ;p