i was up by 11am, helped my ma by watching the dog were dog sitting for, went for a walk with them, hung out with my ma and got to talk to him before he drifted off to sleep. my ma and i didnt even fight. not even once! it was wonderful. a lot of it has to do with my attitude. ive realized that its something i need to work on. a lot of the time when im bitchy or upset its because of the whole wheelchair situation. theres nothing i can do about it tho. i need to accept that. i think i finally am doing that.
it sucks that it took twenty-six years.. well twenty-four.. to finally do that tho. however, with all the changes im working on, i think that my mindset on the whole wheelchair thing and an attitude adjustment towards it is long over due. im going for a full make over.. body, mind and soul. i have to say, personally, i think im doing pretty fuckin good so far. im definitely headed down the right path. the best part is i have one of my best friends walking along beside me to keep me on track and support me. i dont think i could ask for anything else.
i know its gonna be hard. but im going to keep this positive mental attitude i have going.. and take it day by day until ive reached my goal. as for right now tho, im fuckin tired lol. i only got a couple hours of sleep today and im going to be up early again tomorrow for a wake up call and then actually up and out of bed for me.
so for tomorrow.. list of things i dont like/small goals to work on, stationery, shirts for secondlife and maybe a little reading.