elle jay*

its a bad thing. it makes nice people cranky and brings out the worst in pretty much everyone. him and i got into a little tonight. it was a silly argument and it didnt last long, but it shouldnt have taken place to begin with. being that i was over tired tho, i was also [...]

why do i fucking walk on them for her? i do it all the time too. ill bite my tongue and suffer myself, get angry or frustrated or whatever the case is to avoid getting her pissed off. i really need to knock it off. i think i might do it tho cause she is [...]

i didnt finish my art piece before he got home. granted hes not home yet, but tomorrow he will be and it wont be done. it is close tho, i have been working on it every day. its a fairly big piece tho and after a while of drawing, my arms get tired. so as [...]

ive had a headache since last night and its turned into a migraine. no blog tonight.. i promise a long one tomorrow.

my internet has been acting funny all night. im pretty sure its the weather. it went from nice out to stormy with tornado warnings. those are always fun, expecially when im already in bed. id pretty much be fucked. i dont feel every well either. i think im getting a migraine. so this blog might [...]

so his prezzies are sent! finally, lol. but of course.. nothing went right in the process. we didnt leave the house until 3:30pm. we arrived at the post office, someone was parked in the handicapped spot. they werent handicapped. the line was out the door, so we had to wait. it seemed like everyone and [...]

..and over again. didnt get up til 3pm today. which in turns means i didnt get to bring his prezzies to the post office. tomorrow tho, for sure. i cant wait til i get someone new to take over mornings for her. she was in a bad mood tonight when she came over to help [...]

carry on your baggage, we can tolerate the turbulence, just promise that the pressure in the cabin isnt permanent.. i got up this morning at 11:30am. the earliest ive been up in a long time. called my grams, she rambled for thirty mins. i love her. i gave my ma the card i made her, [...]

i need a new caregiver. today it was 3:15pm.. after repeated calls. she always says, “i can get up when i have something to do..”. apparently helping me doesnt count as something to do. she can get up fine for other things, tho. i know shes one of my best friends, but if shes gonna [...]

same shit different day. i didnt do much today. i was in bed until late in the afternoon again. i did however build some stuff in secondlife which im quite pleased with. ive also become very good at photoshop. i worked on my art piece after i got out of bed as well.. its looking [...]

ok, so this was originally written february of 2006, but i saw it and i decided to post it again. it was kind of a reminder, i might not always have things in my control. i might have to rely on people ive never met before. sometimes i have to ask for help or accept [...]

i dont know what happened to that energy i had last week. it seems to have disappeared and because of that ive fallen twice in the last two days. its really frustrating. i dont know how to put into words exactly how frustrating it is. but when i do fall, it pretty much drains me [...]

im feeling… idk. not happy, but not sad. im having a blah day. i havent worked on much cause of it. just some of my art piece. im not really even feeling chatty enough to write a blog. but, i said id do it and i want to regardless of how i feel. bear with [...]

so, im feeling the creative energies flowing.. i have so many ideas running thru my head that im finding it kinda hard to grab on to any one in particular. i know i wanna finish the piece i started already and i wanna work on the three canvas one for him. i already have a [...]

1. what is your definition of happiness? and how well are you living it? 2. who is the happiest person you know? what specificaly have they taught you about happiness? 3. what are the three wisest lessons you have learned about happiness in your life so far? 4. make a list of the possessions, achievements, [...]