so for the first time ever today.. barring the one time i did it before for less than 15 seconds for the same person.. i went on my webcam. that may not seem like much to most people, but its a big deal to me. i know ive said it before, but im gonna say it again.. i love that i can be myself with him and not worry about being judged. theres no one else in the world that i would have done that for. i was a little shy, but i think that for the most part it wasnt so bad. except of course for when he pointed out that i was a bit shy and then i proceeded to turn about six shades of red.
and of course we both got a kick out of the fact that because of how i was laying i looked like nothing but a floating head in a sea of plaid. thats thanks to my electric bed being up behind me, my pillow to the side of me and my blankets up around me. seriously, floating head in a sea of plaid. it was quite comical, a nice laugh for the morning lol. in all honesty tho, i liked that i was able to go on cam without a second thought. it felt good.. plus its always nice to see his nerdface. i mean his superfuckin cool face =x ..even when he sits there and makes funny faces about 95% of the time.. always a good time tho.
i know ive also mentioned this before, but i love our morning chats. its really the best way to wake up in the morning. plus, sometimes he just says the things i need to hear, just little reminders that are desperately needed.. especially today, it was perfet timing and much needed. he just always seems to know just when those times are and i love him for that amoungst other reasons.
after our morning chat and he left for the bbq he was going to i chatted with my ma while my dad finally move the exercise thing into my room. im so excited its finally in here. i used to today too.. only for ten minutes or so tho. no one is home and i didnt want my arms to be too tired just in case no one was here to help me right away. i did use it tho! aside from that, ive fucked around in secondlife today. actually, i ran into an old friend completely by accident and her and i bullshitted for a bit.
i also messed around with photoshop for a bit today. however, i didnt fuck with the logo cause last night when we were discussing what changes he wanted for the it.. i was so tired, i forgot what those changes were lol. now im tired again, which is why im writing this so much earlier than i normally would. this way after he gets home i can chat and then pass out without having to try to stay awake to type. i cant believe its not even 8pm yet and im ready to go to sleep.
tomorrow im going to work on more designs for stationery, read, exercise and after that.. i dont really know right now.. probably sleep, lol! ;p