its been a rough couple of days. an emotional rollercoaster if you will. i honestly dont even wanna get into it cause im still wrapping my head around it. however, as much as im upset, im still happy for him. he deserves the best, and if he did infact find someone then i hope she is just that. even typing this now without really getting into it i feel like im about to start crying, lame i know. i knew where we stood.. where we stand.. and it was silly on my part to have a faint glimmer of hope that anything could be like it was. a girl can dream tho.
regardless, im hoping i didnt change what we did have because i couldnt just keep my mouth shut earlier today. i dont think i did, but i dont know for sure. cause honestly, i think id be even more crushed losing him as my best friend than anything else. he keeps me sane. i feel like i havent really talked to him in a couple days tho, and to be honest its throwing me off a bit. its like my days are happening, but they arent complete without chatting to him.
i did play the wii he bought me tho. we hooked it up earlier this eveing. im pretty sure i played it for a good two hours. im going to be either sore or tired tomorrow.. or knowing me, both. whatever tho, i had fun.. i just wish i could have told him about it. my grandpa played against me. he sucked at it. i however bowled a 137. maybe tomorrow i can beat that.. possibly.
hes been sleeping all day.. i wish hed wake up so i can talk to him. =/