elle jay*

seriously, this couldnt have come at a more innopportune time. i just finished the graphics for our pages and he set them up and now.. i have no laptop. well, let me rephrase, i have a shitty one i can use, but it has none of my stuff on it.. so basically i dont have [...]

closed eyes and a hung head. thinking thoughts, but left unsaid. closing down to owns own devices. unaware of their loving sacrifices. a tear purges out and glistens the cheek. followed by more as she relives the bleak. eyes swell, the heart shrinks. down to into the soul the depression sinks. down into the holes [...]

dwelling in the sky were two celestial spheres rotating, one revolution a year of the two, one was brilliant its light chasing all fear the other was pale, pulling dark near his was a love of beauty, consistent hers was still love, but through a heart distant he promised forever to follow her song she [...]

i went to the doctor today. i needed to see her cause its mandatory for getting my new wheelchair. shes my new doctor, so being the new kid on the block i had to have the first appointment of the day, 8:30am.. i was up at 5:30am. its been two weeks since i started my [...]

if you havent read the book choke by chuck palahniuk. i suggest it. yes, there is was a movie made based off the book.. but lets be honest here, the movies are never as good as the books are. i was reading a bit today and after i was done i started looking thru my [...]

im not depressed, but im feeling a little low.. so tonights blog is something i wrote awhile ago, but wanted to share. i cant see. i am lost. no one is around. my heart is broke. i scream. no one hears. i cry. i struggle. i am brought down. i try. i fail. all is [...]

so i fell today and bumped my head on the way down. it hurt like a bitch and my head has been hurting all day. because of that, i didnt do much today. i did download some music ive been meaning to and i basically just chilled. headaches suck, much like my balance did this [...]

im tired and sore. my back has been killing me all day. i honestly dont have much to say tonight.. i havent done much today, just worked in photoshop for awhile and downloaded some new music. aside from that, i didnt really do anything. and now im already passing out.. i know i should write [...]

i really need to stop falling asleep before im able to blog, lol. anyway, im here now.. thats all that matters! yesterday was a pretty shitty day to be honest. i didnt do much and was just in a blah kinda mood. it was a gorgeous day and all i wanted to do was go [...]

i fell again tonight and im tired. ive fallen asleep 3 different times just waiting for the page to load so i can type this.. and my laptop isnt that slow. and its not even that late. falling really fuckin drains me tho. im also shakey cause of it. and now my wrist hurts more [...]

im tired of being tired. thats still things i wanna do tonight and all i can think about is falling asleep.. i didnt do too much today. ive been trying to get some graphics done, but i havent been feeling very creative. im still working on them tho.. just slowly. i also read a little [...]

i wanna just close my eyes and pass out, but i have to blog.. at least a little bit. i didnt do much today. i wasnt feeling very creative. i did read a bit and i hung out with my ma. i was telling her about the business endeavors were gonna get into. she played [...]

today marks month two of blogging! yay!! ;D

i feel drained today. i dont know if its from using that exercise thing or not, but my arms and hands are tired and i could pass out right now.. in fact, i can guarantee that this wont be a lengthy blog tonight. ive already passed out a few times tonight. i didnt do much [...]