elle jay*

so on tuesday, i turned the big two seven. i had been waiting anxiously for the prezzies he had sent my way. i knew of two out of three, a pair of socks with nubby things on the feet.. so i can transfer and be warm [hes so thoughtful] and a how to book.. html, xhtml and css for dummies, to be exact. the third he refused to tell me, which isnt like us at all. normally we cant even wait til we have got the prezzie in hand, well blurt it out as were looking for it to purchase, lol.

not this time around. i asked countless times with no results. then he goes, “if you wanna know, ill tell you.” of course i wanna know! “ye– no– yes! nono! dont tell me….. tell me. no dont!” im pretty sure my answer was different variations of that every time the questioned was asked. i wanted to know, but the anticipation was even better. he didnt tell me.i called and woke him up for work that morning and he sleepily sang me happy birthday. i loved it, it was really cute. another phone call later and he was off to work, unfortunately it was a double.

later on that morning after i woke up my ma comes up to my room with a package and the rest of the mail. she starts sorting thru her stuff while i sit there with my prezzie. tape still intact, scissors needed. i was in bed still, scissors were not an option. so i pry at the tape for a second and in the process ask my ma to help. when shes done with the mail. fuck that. i have been waiting for this package for a week and some odd days. i pulled and peeled the tape as much as i could..

twenty minutes later after a minor issue with the tape, i was in. he even got it gift wrapped ;D i wasnt expecting that at all. it was a sweet touch. two prezzies all wrapped up nice looked up at me from the box. i knew the larger one was the how to book, i opened it and flipped thru it a minute before going back to the other one. i knew this one was a book too, but i had no idea which one. i ripped the paper and all i saw was the red D and black background. i immediately knew what it was! a book by hank motherfuckin moody! if you dont know who that is, be ashamed. do yourself a favor and go check out the first episode of californication. if youre not hooked by the end, well then.. id say theres something wrong with you. lol, i kid. but seriously one of our favorites.

i am so excited about this book. i absolutely love it and i hadnt even read it yet. my ma of course gave me an odd look when she heard the name. i explained the significance of the book  to her, but i dont think she got it. oh well, i did. he had asked me what i wanted for my birthday. i said hank moody. he delivered. granted the real hank moody would have been much more appreciated.. lol maybe next year! regardless, i havent been able to put it down. im almost done and even just talking about it here makes me wanna stop posting and pick the book back up. i texted him to let him know i got it and i loved it and he said he had a surprise for me. turns out his double ended up not being a double. yay! that meant hanging out and more 24. and we did, it was great. :)

my ma went out to pick up our dinner. i finally decided on thai. it was delicious and i didnt feel guilty eating it. thats always a plus, lol. i hung out downstairs the rest of the night with my parents and we ended up playing wii for a couple hours. my dad bitched, my ma and i laughed at him. he bitched more and lost.. numerous times, lol. it was fun :) no one fought all night and my ma even got me a low fat yummy ice cream dessert for my birthday complete with peanut butter cups, my favorite! it was actually a very nice evening with my folks. im glad we decided to stay in and hang out at home. my friend even stopped by later after class to gimme a little prezzie to last me til friday, which was awesome of her.

im going for my tattoo this upcoming week and im excited. i feel like its something i need to get me in motion. this is going to be a year of changes for me. im really serious about getting on track. and this is by far the perfect year to get it done. i have my support, my motivation, my positive mental attitude and me results so far speak for themselves. its working so far. now to raise the bar. for now tho, i really need sleep. my hands are tired and my eyes keep wanting to shut. as much as i wanna read the rest of my new book.. i dont think tonight is gonna be the night i find out how it ends! sleepydoodle time, lol.

You won’t know the power of the journey until you step up each rung of  the
ladder toward what you want. Then, even if you get to the top and find this
dream is no longer desirable, you will be viewing life from a higher vantage
point and you will have grown in you’re ability to chase your dreams.
Troy Fontana