i should be in england right now. im not tho and its not that im not ready. i just havent met my goal weight, unfortunately. i could have gone regardless, but it would defeat the point of the trip to begin with. it is supposed to be my reward for reaching my goal weight and then it will be my trip of independence. i will go to england and itll be a fuckin blast, but its going to have to wait until i can get down to where i wanna be. basically because hes going to be the one helping me so i have to be at a point where he can actually do that and also i wanna be comfortable with myself. i know for a fact if i were to have gone id be way to self conscious of myself and although i know id still have fun, it wouldnt be the same as it will be when i do end up out there. hopefully, itll be by next summer.
thirty-five pounds down and ive seemed to come to a dead halt. im working hard on breaking free of this plateau i seem to be stuck on tho. im ready to take a running leap off of it to be honest. tomorrow starts a more intense work out. well, intense may be the wrong word, but itll be a little bit more than what i have been doing without killing myself or making myself too tired to be able to transfer myself cause thats no fun. i feel like i should be off exercising right now. hell, i think i might. ive got the motiviation, ive got the music.. i definitely have the time!
my future awaits.. its time for me to get on the case a bit more and not let it wait for too long. :)