elle jay*

i should be in england right now. im not tho and its not that im not ready. i just havent met my goal weight, unfortunately. i could have gone regardless, but it would defeat the point of the trip to begin with. it is supposed to be my reward for reaching my goal weight and [...]

ive been a slacker. big time. to be honest, i dont feel like my excuse is legitimate, but it is at the same time. its a difficult one to explain. i really dont know where ive been for the past couple months, but i feel like i checked out during that time. i was depressed. [...]

i have to give a schuperschpechial thanks to him, my nerdface, for putting up that awesome clip of dug from UP! it makes me smile every time i play it and sometimes giggle ;D its the little things like that that make you absolutely amazing! thanks again, sweets ;p xx
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so along with last nights little accomplishment i had a couple tonight, too. i was able to tie my hair up again for starters. following that, i did my complete transfer from start to finish [excluding putting the cushion back on my chair] all by myself. that included being able to pull my pants off [...]

it might not mean much to most people.. but tonight i tied my hair up all by myself! i know it doesnt sound like much, but its something i havent been able to do it in a long time. i just dont have the strength in my arms, but tonight.. i was determined! and after [...]

i love how the little things can make the biggest difference. i havent been in the best of moods lately. not that anything was majorly wrong, i was just letting my inner voice take over and it wasnt being very positive. however, after speaking to him and explaining what was wrong i feel about a [...]

its been a month since i last posted. ive slacked immensely, but im back! i dont know what the deal was. nothing to talk about i suppose. my diet has hit a plateau which is bugging the fuck out of me. however, im still following it and its causing me to exercise even more than [...]

..and then the house is mine for the week! yay! my friend thats staying with me is also on a diet, which makes it a little easier. we already have planned on playing a ton of wii and we have some arts and crafts projects in the works. shes givin up drinking so no alcohol [...]

i cant wait for them to go! i really need a break from the folks. my ma is driving me up a wall. anyway! we have two new sites to create for people, so our little business is going well. lol, too bad we arent making any money off  it it yet. i think the [...]

i have lost more weight! another 1.5lbs which brings me to a total of 29.6 lost so far. im so excited! diets really suck, im not going to lie. but when you see the results it makes it all worth it. when you continually see the numbers drop on the scale it makes all the [...]

i feel bad. today was his last day off and i slept thru it. we were on yahoo voice, but i slept. he even wanted to watch a movie and i slept thru that! i love being able to hang with him and nerd out, but i slept thru it today and it makes me [...]

i want to post, but i want to sleep. decisions, decisions. this wont be a long post cause honestly, i might pass out in the middle of it lol. just a quick little diet update.. i have officially lost 28lbs so far or for the brits, 2stone. ;D im quite pleased. my graphic design page [...]

fifteen days until the folks are out of town again. dont get me wrong, i love my parents. but holy fuck, sometimes they drive me crazy. im pretty sure we are all ready to have a vacation from each other. so im pretty excited. my friend that normally doesnt stay with me is going to [...]

pseudo me. myself, but not the real me. the person i want to be. the person i want people to see. the person i wish i was.wouldnt it be great to be yourself, but not be you at all? pseudo me isnt much different than myself. she can walk, shes outgoing and shes thin. i [...]

its one of the hardest things to do sometimes, but one of the most important things to do to make sure i stay on track. to be honest, ive been doing pretty good so far. ive been wii’ing for at least an hour every day, sometimes a little more. plus, im also doing other exercises [...]