elle jay*

oh how i miss you! im actually excited about moving to arizona. i know its a few years off and to be honest anything can happen by then.. but if i end up going there, itll be awesome. and fucking warm! yay!! i know when i first brought it up i was kind of reluctant [...]

i have my long term goal in site, but i can cut it down a bit into a short term goal. not so much making it “more realistic” cause it isnt an unrealistic goal to begin with. its just a matter of making it feel a little more.. reachable. baby steps is the way im [...]

i dont know who believes in paranormal and who doesnt, i definitely am a believer tho. i always have been. i have had my own experiences quite a few different times. besides that, who is to say there is no such thing as ghosts? most likely the same people that say there are no such [...]

this year is all about revolutions! thats right, fuck resolutions. this is the year of change. its time for me to really get on the case. i slacked a little on my diet with everything that was going on with my family, plus the holidays. it all just was bad timing and i got off [...]

a little over a month to be exact. sorry for the delay in posts, but this time there is a legitimate reason. unfortunately, its a reason i wish i didnt have. two days after my last post my family received some bad news. it was 2am and i couldnt sleep, neither could he. so we [...]

first and foremost, the socks totally work. incredibly well, might i add. not only did my feet stay warm, but i could transfer at the same time. he is a genius! i have no idea why that thought never came to mind before. well, in all honesty, it probably has. however, pre-nubby socks, i would [...]

so on tuesday, i turned the big two seven. i had been waiting anxiously for the prezzies he had sent my way. i knew of two out of three, a pair of socks with nubby things on the feet.. so i can transfer and be warm [hes so thoughtful] and a how to book.. html, [...]

so sleepy, im going to crash. i have things i have to do tomorrow. have to! products, products, products! thats the agenda for tomorrow. seriously. i mean it this time. no fuckin around.

well, for starters ive lost 26.4lbs so far! in another 1.6 i will have lost two stone [for all you non-brits, a stone is fourteen pounds]. i will definitely have lost over thirty pounds by the time christmas rolls around and im realy excited about that. we arent having a traditional family thanksgiving this year [...]

i was going to write a long ass post tonight. about what i wasnt quite sure just yet, but i knew i was going to. im not really sure whats come over me in the past hour or so, but im a little down. and suddenly i dont feel like writing anything. id be quite [...]

just a little over a week til the folks go out of town! im excited. honestly, itll be the best birthday present ever. dont get me wrong, i love my parents even tho i may not always like them. but its hard living at home with them. so when they go on vacation, i get [...]

let me write you a song. maybe you can play along, on that yellow guitar of yours with its yellow pine, and its f-hole signs. its magic i tell you this kindred, unknowingly perfect coercion of sound and rhythm. we arent making music, but the music of our lives. a constant swift and changing melody [...]

thats what my ma and myself are.. according to him at least, lol. this weekend we had absolutely gorgeous weather. i love indian summers! so today my ma decided she wanted to go out for dinner. i figured my dad would go, but he got cranky and in turn didnt wanna go out. so it [...]

seriously, being in a wheelchair sometimes forces you into these situations where you have to come up with whatever you can to get some things done. for these occasions i have my tools of the trade which include my scissors, back scratcher and telestik. i use all three of these on a daily basis. the [...]

him and i were talking last night, sometimes i forget how well he knows me and knows when something is wrong. he of course asked and after replying with “nothing” a few times i finally told him i was sad and that i feel like a failure. im going to be twenty-seven in less than [...]