after only having to wait 5 minutes, we were in the room. since we were at a teaching hospital the first person to see us was a student or whatever youd call him. he was over EVERY note that they had on me. he was in there with us for at leat an hour if not longer. then it was time to weigh in. i was in a good mood, i was ready to see my weight. i watched the numbers count up.. they stopped at a number for a brief second, i got excited.. and then it went up. i gained 3 pounds. i was devistated. i still am to be honest. all i wanted to do was cry. we ended up being at the hosital until 12:10pm. it was a long day.

i thought after such a disappointment i needed a smile. we decided to go to the animal shelter and play with the kittens. the new ones arent as playful as the other ones were. still cute, but not as friendly. i was also kind of anooyed with one of the volunteers there. she was probably 10 years old, but every time the kitten even came by me the stupid little bitch would take the cat away from me. it was annoying. we finally left and came home. after we got home i went up to my room and cried for a bit. it was a rought day and that was a big let down.

tomorrow my chair gets brought in for repairs, so ill be sutck in bed all day. looks like itll be graphics and sleep for me. speaking of which, i wanna write more, but im passing out.. so, more tomorrow, sleep for now.

after the initial investigation they climbed all over the chair and myself like i was a jungle gym. at one point two of them even took naps on me. i wanted to steal them and bring them home with me. minnie was my favorite. she laid with me all day. she played with the string on my hoodie and messed with my hair. she was precious. i loved that i could pick her up all by myself. i need to convince my ma to bring home a kitten with us.

i got home from the shelter and hung out with my ma for a bit and watched part of a movie with her. she went to run some errands so i ended upstairs fuckin around on photoshop for a bit then secondlife. i was in bed by 8pm or so.. chatted with him for a bit and then we both ended up passing out on a voice call. i dont even remember falling asleep. it was nice fallin asleep with him tho, as usual. i vaguely remember waking up around 1am or so and hearing him briefly before i passed out again.

we woke up this morning to my lovely alarm on my iphone. seriously, its the best alarm ever. ive never woken up so quickly with any other cell phone alarm clock ever. sometimes i even catch it before it goes off, lol. if i dont it scares the shit out of me. i remember how much it would scare me when id hear his go off thru the headset.. and now that its mine and louder.. its even worse.

we bullshitted once we were coherent enough. briefly talked about business names.. actually, it was more than briefly. i flipped thru the dictionary while he searched for different words online. eventually we decided on one.. im not gonna say what it is yet tho ;p ..regardless, i immediately started working in photoshop on a logo. im sure i mentioned it before.. but, hes fuckin picky lol. those of you who read the prior blog about me doing his other logos would know that. im already on like the 2345884th one. its a good thing i like photoshop.. and him. haha

i worked on those pretty much all day and then got into bed relatively early. ive been wanting to pass out for the last couple hours, but forced myself to stay awake so i could a) talk to him longer and b) not wake up at 3am cause i went to bed uber early. however, its going on 10:30 and definitely my bed time. tomorrow, im sure ill work on more logos and who the fuck knows what elese ;p .. for now tho, its off to bed!

i didnt do all that much today.. i woke up kinda tired and almost fell twice while transferring. i ended up just fuckin around in photoshop a lot today. i was searching the internet for some free brushes for it. i found a ton and they all look amazing, so i cant wait to start using them. aside from that i didnt do much. i kept falling asleep, which sucked cause i wanted to read and couldnt keep my eyes open long enough to do so.

its alright tho, im headed to bed as soon as i finish this.. which will be in just a second ;p tomorrow im going to the animal shelter and i get to play with all the little kittens, after that im gonna mess around in photoshop some more and possibly read.. maybe even work on art if my arms arent tired. for now tho, im off to bed before i pass out!

i think i need to look for a new caregiver. right now one of my best friends helps me. its awesome to have my friend be able to help me, but at the same time its hard. i feel like she doesnt view it as a job, which technically, it is. but at the same time, shes my best friend and its hard to speak up and be like.. no, this is how it is. i dont want it to hinder our friendship, at the same time tho.. if i tell her im going to look for someone new to help me.. it might cause an argument. im not sure what i should do. i need things done at certain times. i need to be on somewhat of a routine for getting up and such,. and it just doesnt seem to be working with her. ill figure something out.