elle jay* » bowling

sooo tired!

elle — Wed, 19 Aug 2009 03:26:18 +0000

i hung out with the family today and it was actually fun. we bowled aa few different times, i won one or two and lost some as well.. shit happens tho. aside from that nothing really happened today, my friend was supposed to come over and she bailed like i thought she would. no surprise there. i got to talk to him online for a bit, hes on holiday so we didnt get to voice chat.. but any chat is better than none at all.his seminar went great, which i figured it would ;D and hopefully tomorrow ill get to chat with him on his way home! yay!

aside from all of that, i need to go to bed cause i feel like im about to pass out! ;p

positive mental attitude & wii'ing

elle — Sat, 27 Jun 2009 02:11:56 +0000

man, i love wii’ing. seriously.. i wii’ed for 2.5 hours tonight, lol. i finally got my ma and my dad to play some bowling with me. i beat my top score for my left hand – 153.. and i did for my right as well with a 145. i love it. my ma got all into it and was jumping up and down to make the pins fall over, lol. then i got my dad to play. he kicked my ass in bowling, but i still ended up with the 145. then he wanted to play golf. he has a hard time remembering its a game and he got all pissy and i decided it was time to call it quits with golf, lol. then i went to baseball and won 4-3 against the wii.. then it was back to bowling, this time against my grandpa. he finally broke 100 and wouldnt shut up about it. ;D so, nerface.. thank you once again.. i love wii’ing on you, lmfao!

i seriously feel like ive lost weight. i need to get weighed to know for sure.. but i honestly think i did. physically, i feel better than i have in a long time.. and im just getting started. im going to make my goal weight and im going to look absolutely amazing when i do. the wii is definitely helping me get to my goal. it gets my heart rate going, im exercising and i know im burning calories. i love it! i actually looked in the mirror tonight, like really looked and saw myself at my goal weight.. and it felt amazing. so theres no way im giving up til ive reached it. im definitely on the right track and i cant wait to see how it all turns out.

i also went to the abilities expo today. i got a new grabber, its called the telestik. ill post a link on the right for it. its seriously the best one ive had yet. i know i just got it, but i already know it can do so much more than the other ones ive had. its much lighter and the whole concept of it is much more adapted to a person with a disability. so im excited about it. i also went to that sex on wheels: the art of kissing workshop. im glad i went. the stuff the speaker talked about really made a lot of sense and really hit home more than once. a lot of it really made me think about my own situation in a way i never had before. im still processing everything he said. plus, i bought his book, which ill also post a link for.

all-in-all.. it was a really good day. i got to wake him up and have a mini morning dj session for him, then i slept.. woke up, went to the expo, talked to him after work, wii’ed, blogged.. i feel good about myself.. and i like that. :)

tomorrow in no particular order.. css, laugh with my nerdface, wii, read, crochet maybe, art maybe.. probably take a mini nap.. i mean, brainstorm! and then photoshop for a bit.. by then he should be home and then more chatting and laughing with him ;D yay! good plan. i like it!

crying & wii'ing

elle — Wed, 24 Jun 2009 03:41:38 +0000

its been a rough couple of days. an emotional rollercoaster if you will. i honestly dont even wanna get into it cause im still wrapping my head around it. however, as much as im upset, im still happy for him. he deserves the best, and if he did infact find someone then i hope she is just that. even typing this now without really getting into it i feel like im about to start crying, lame i know. i knew where we stood.. where we stand.. and it was silly on my part to have a faint glimmer of hope that anything could be like it was. a girl can dream tho.

regardless, im hoping i didnt change what we did have because i couldnt just keep my mouth shut earlier today. i dont think i did, but i dont know for sure. cause honestly, i think id be even more crushed losing him as my best friend than anything else. he keeps me sane. i feel like i havent really talked to him in a couple days tho, and to be honest its throwing me off a bit. its like my days are happening, but they arent complete without chatting to him.

i did play the wii he bought me tho. we hooked it up earlier this eveing. im pretty sure i played it for a good two hours. im going to be either sore or tired tomorrow.. or knowing me, both. whatever tho, i had fun.. i just wish i could have told him about it. my grandpa played against me. he sucked at it. i however bowled a 137. maybe tomorrow i can beat that.. possibly.

hes been sleeping all day.. i wish hed wake up so i can talk to him. =/