elle jay*

6:50am. who in their right mind gets up that fuckin early? it sucked, but i was only bitchy for like 20 minutes.. i just needed to fully wake up. prior to waking up completely, my ma decided to ask me the same question about five times in a row. when im half asleep, thats probably [...]

why do i fucking walk on them for her? i do it all the time too. ill bite my tongue and suffer myself, get angry or frustrated or whatever the case is to avoid getting her pissed off. i really need to knock it off. i think i might do it tho cause she is [...]

my internet has been acting funny all night. im pretty sure its the weather. it went from nice out to stormy with tornado warnings. those are always fun, expecially when im already in bed. id pretty much be fucked. i dont feel every well either. i think im getting a migraine. so this blog might [...]

carry on your baggage, we can tolerate the turbulence, just promise that the pressure in the cabin isnt permanent.. i got up this morning at 11:30am. the earliest ive been up in a long time. called my grams, she rambled for thirty mins. i love her. i gave my ma the card i made her, [...]

i need a new caregiver. today it was 3:15pm.. after repeated calls. she always says, “i can get up when i have something to do..”. apparently helping me doesnt count as something to do. she can get up fine for other things, tho. i know shes one of my best friends, but if shes gonna [...]

today i spent part of the day pissed off. not at everything, but at my mom and some other family members. it was what some would say is a stupid reason, but in my head.. at the time i was convinced it was a valid reason. because i was angry, i was bitchy to most [...]

a hug. its the only thing i want right now. i just want to physically feel close to someone. i feel like crying. i just want a hug, i want to feel the warmth of someone as they wrap their arms around me and whisper in my ear that everything will be alright.. maybe tell [...]