elle jay* » cargiver

it finally happened

elle — Sat, 23 May 2009 04:31:24 +0000

we got into it today. she was supposed to come help me early today so we could go out and do some stuff and she didnt get up until 4:15pm. i was beyond pissed. i wish i could have recorded the conversation. some stuff she said was just unbelievable. like when she said “you dont pay me”.. yes, yes i do. last i checked that was my signature on the bottom of her time sheet. and she has the audacity to say its not about the money! if its not about the money then why is it at the end of the pay period shes right there askin for my signature so she can get her check?? if its not about the money, why fill out a time sheet to begin with?! ugh! there was so much more involved in the argument, but i wouldnt even know where to begin to explain it.

im so frustrated. i actually ended up hanging up on her. she called me after class, but i didnt answer and she didnt leave me a voice mail. and i know im not in the wrong.. so until she apologizes were offically fighting. im also going to be posting an ad tomorrow on craigslist for my new caregiver. the way she handles helping me or lack thereof isnt fair to me. im relying on her and she doesnt come thru. ive had enough.

anyway, moving on. aside from all that.. ive had a pretty good night. my ma helped me up and helped me shower. by the time i was done he was home and we got to chat for a bit before he headed to bed, which is always nice. to be honest, and its only happened a few times cause he was away.. but when we dont talk i feel like my day isnt complete. lol, like something is off. after that, i ended up going to listen to my friends dj set in secondlife and then afterwards did a set of my own. i had fun, i always do when i dj.

tomorrow ill be up early and im gonna sit outside and read for a bit before i come in and do some more art. after that, im not sure.. probably work on some shirts for my shop in secondlife and also some designs for my stationery. ;D

over and over

elle — Tue, 12 May 2009 04:38:44 +0000

..and over again. didnt get up til 3pm today. which in turns means i didnt get to bring his prezzies to the post office. tomorrow tho, for sure. i cant wait til i get someone new to take over mornings for her. she was in a bad mood tonight when she came over to help me into bed. it pisses me off cause i always feel like i have to walk on eggshells for her when shes in a bad mood. if the situation was reversed tho, things are totally different. its like the end of the world if im pissy, but if she is its perfectly fine. that gets so old, so fast.

i applied for some jobs tonight. well not so much applied as sent in my resume, so i hope i hear back from them soon. i could use the time away from home. or at least have a reason for being in my room and online that doesnt make my ma all bitchy. apparently, my reasons arent good enough for her. i also worked on my art today.. almost done with the ground and then im gonna start on the sky. i cant wait to see what it looks like when its done cause it looks pretty cool now as well.

ive also been reading my book. i dont know how well its going to work for me, but i guess we will see in the end. im keeping my positive mental attitude about the whole thing. i think tomorrow im going to start his scarf instead of finish the one im working on. lets face it, the one i am working on isnt one anyone is going to wear, lol. its not wide enough for a decent scarf. i heard from a couple friends today, too. they just had a baby last month. they sent a bunch of pictures over. shes precious, i wish i had a baby of my own. id love to be a mom. sorry, i feel like im rambling. and im not sorry, its my blog, right? i can ramble if i want!

im not gonna go on anymore tonight tho.. i dont have much to say, i dont feel well. so, im gonna attempt to nap, which wont happen cause im anticipating him waking up, lol. im gonna read tho and hopefully ill feel better tomorrow. post office tomorrow! yay! ;D