we only had to wait fifteen minutes before being called in. im pretty sure thats the shortest amount of time we have ever waited and then we were in there for longer than we have ever been before. two hours! they asked all kinds of questions regarding the chair and the things i can do for myself and what i need help with. after that i got all measured and picked out the chair and color i wanted than it was off to get myself and the chair weighed. something i normally hate doing. however, with my diet just around the corner (waiting on the food to arrive).. it was nice to have a starting weight to go by.

i gotta say, tho im not pleased with my weight.. obviously.. its a lot less than i originally thought. sitting down all the time is an optical illusion. apparently i weigh less than my friend but because i am sitting all the time i never would have guessed that. that in turns means my goal weight will be reached sooner than i thought, hopefully. one day at a time tho. im confident this will work, but im not gonna rush it or get frustrated if it doesnt look like im losing it. itll happen.

aside from all that, i didnt do much today. all that took up most of it. when i got home, i took a nap. i was so tired i couldnt keep my eyes open. by the time i woke up he had gotten home so we chatted til he went to bed and then i ended up downstairs cause my room was just too hot to hang out in at the time. i bullshitted with my ma for a bit and watched a couple shows with her. we havent done that in a while.

my friend called me earlier in the evening, i asked her about the herbal refreshments. she told me she would call the guy after class. instead, she called me and said “hey can we make this quick tonight cause..” and then proceeded to give her reasons. none of which were of any importance. i have to admit, i was annoyed. shes gonna call me and ask if we can make it quick tonight cause she has plans.. but when i need her here in the morning  cause i have plans or to give me a shower or whatever the case she cant do it. yet, i hurried up for her. i have no idea why.

i actually had a whole speech prepared. i was gonna ask her if she could come and give me a shower tomorrow and if she said no, thats when i was gonna lay it on her. but when i asked, she said yes. she even said it would be early and then we would go talk to the guy about that stuff. now, if it doesnt happen and she doesnt come over.. not only am i going to be incredibly pissed, but i will also tell her what i was going to say last night. if it fucks up our friendship, then i guess it wasnt as strong as i thought it was and at least i still have him. maybe she needs the kick in the ass tho. who knows?

so tomorrow; shower, bank, herbal refreshments, maybe one last lunch out together, a little art and some reading.