elle jay*

i should be in england right now. im not tho and its not that im not ready. i just havent met my goal weight, unfortunately. i could have gone regardless, but it would defeat the point of the trip to begin with. it is supposed to be my reward for reaching my goal weight and [...]

ive been a slacker. big time. to be honest, i dont feel like my excuse is legitimate, but it is at the same time. its a difficult one to explain. i really dont know where ive been for the past couple months, but i feel like i checked out during that time. i was depressed. [...]

so along with last nights little accomplishment i had a couple tonight, too. i was able to tie my hair up again for starters. following that, i did my complete transfer from start to finish [excluding putting the cushion back on my chair] all by myself. that included being able to pull my pants off [...]

i love how the little things can make the biggest difference. i havent been in the best of moods lately. not that anything was majorly wrong, i was just letting my inner voice take over and it wasnt being very positive. however, after speaking to him and explaining what was wrong i feel about a [...]

..and then the house is mine for the week! yay! my friend thats staying with me is also on a diet, which makes it a little easier. we already have planned on playing a ton of wii and we have some arts and crafts projects in the works. shes givin up drinking so no alcohol [...]

its one of the hardest things to do sometimes, but one of the most important things to do to make sure i stay on track. to be honest, ive been doing pretty good so far. ive been wii’ing for at least an hour every day, sometimes a little more. plus, im also doing other exercises [...]

i have my long term goal in site, but i can cut it down a bit into a short term goal. not so much making it “more realistic” cause it isnt an unrealistic goal to begin with. its just a matter of making it feel a little more.. reachable. baby steps is the way im [...]

this year is all about revolutions! thats right, fuck resolutions. this is the year of change. its time for me to really get on the case. i slacked a little on my diet with everything that was going on with my family, plus the holidays. it all just was bad timing and i got off [...]

well, for starters ive lost 26.4lbs so far! in another 1.6 i will have lost two stone [for all you non-brits, a stone is fourteen pounds]. i will definitely have lost over thirty pounds by the time christmas rolls around and im realy excited about that. we arent having a traditional family thanksgiving this year [...]

thats what my ma and myself are.. according to him at least, lol. this weekend we had absolutely gorgeous weather. i love indian summers! so today my ma decided she wanted to go out for dinner. i figured my dad would go, but he got cranky and in turn didnt wanna go out. so it [...]

thats my motto, lol. i wish planning a trip was as easy for me as it is for most people. that would be too easy tho! theres wheelchair rental places to look into, accessible places to stay, accessible places to go see.. etc. that doesnt include going to london and quite possibly amsterdam and maybe [...]

the website/blog that him and i are working on has really gotten me to expand my horizon as far as photoshop is concerned. i love it. i now know how to make animated gifs.. may sound lame to some people, but whatever.. its new to me and i rocked it. you can check them out [...]

nothing majorly exciting happened today. i wrote that letter, tho im not sure if it was done correctly. well find out i suppose. there was something i was planning on writing about tonight, but now that im here it totally slipped my mind. oh well, itll come back to me eventually..
so this diet is frustrating. [...]

who would have thought it was useful? certainly not me, lol. ok, i know it is but today i was on facebook and actually used it to find people for the first time. yea, ive had the fuckin page for like 4 months or some shit and have just started searching for people.. and what [...]

ive been putting off blogging for too long now. its not even that i put it off,  i just didnt know what to write about or id pass out before i could get anything down. but here i am! time to get back into the swing of things. last time i really blogged i had [...]