for starters, the diet. its going great. ive lost 34.8lbs, thats 2.48 stone. still a long way to go, but i am getting there. my exercise routine has expanded itself throughout my entire day now. im not even going to try to being the stuff ive got myself doing, but its working! i will admit that one of them is when i turn up some music fairly loud and move around in my chair as much as i can while i dance to it. its the one exercise id be embarrassed to be caught doing.. by anyone, lol.  my song of choice was pretty much given to me as my theme song by my nerdface. he definitely hit the nail on the head with it too. its called “on a mission” by gabriella cilmi.

its time to really get my ass in gear tho because england is just around the corner! just a little over three months and i plan on being there. reservations are in the making as are all the other little details i need to go thru before heading across the pond. i never really got that saying, across the pond. lets call it like it is shall we? a fuckin’ ocean. a very big, very cold ocean. that under normal circumstances i would be terrified of flying over for two reasons; 1. its a fucking ocean and 2. its flying.. over a fuckin ocean. ok, so maybe i still am a little nervous. however! its nothing like i thought it would be. check back in about three months and we will see if i have the same answer, lol. anyway, im getting all the little details sorted out and progress is moving along. ive done my research and now its time to act and make our plans a reality.

im still planning on getting some new ink before i head out there and then have it completed when im there. hopefully, ill be doing that soon. i need to draw up a design for a friend of mine looking for a gemini tattoo idea. once thats done we can head over to the place that my brother used to get his ink done at. im actually looking forward to that a lot. i think itll definitely be a therapeutic experience and probably something i need for a little closure with the whole thing. i think its a big reason theres some tension going on with my folks and myself lately. were dealing with it the best we can, but i think weve hit the ceiling on the situation. well figure it out tho because i know that no matter what they love me and i love them. i think we all just lose sight of that sometimes.

a big part of the negativity was lack of progess, ideas, creativity, projects.. im fixing that too. ive finally gotten my website up for my graphic design business. im going to also be making stationery/notecards. and i have a few other ideas up my sleeve as well. but there they shall remain for the time being. i just know i need to get back into my art big time and check on some dates for this summers array of street festivals. ;D adding that to my to-do list right now as a matter of fact!

alright, time for me to get back on the case! or maybe take a nap.. no, no nap. resistance will not win!! ;p

It’s the constant and determined effort that breaks
down all resistance, sweeps away all obstacles.
Claude M. Bristol

the diet is first and foremost. ive already decided that im going to start using that arm exercise thing i have in my room. i cant use it every day because it does make my arms extremely tired. so, ive decided to use it a couple times a week for a few minutes and continue wii’ing at least an hour every day, no less!! no more cheat days, no excuses. i also need to start getting up by at least 10am at the latest even if i go to bed late, which i usually do whether i want to or not. im hoping to get into a routine so that maybe by 10 or 11 at night im ready for sleep. that would be ideal.

i have other things i need to keep focused on as well. another one of my major revolutions is to get my graphic design site up and running. ive set a goal for the end of february for that one. id like to have the site running by then. cause i cant get paying customers if i dont have my shit together. ive done a lot of stuff for people, but its all been pro bono.. which is absolutely fine with me. its been a great learning experience and ive loved it and continue to.. especially when its for him, hes so anal about it, but its made me work harder and ive gotten to the point that i can make him happy with a graphic on the first try.. at least a few times ive been able too, lol. however, its time i also start getting paid for my time/work. so.. getting the site going is one of my top revolutions!

another is my art. i really need to get back into it. obviously graphic design is art, but i mean more like my paintings and drawings. i have some ideas in my head and i cant wait to get them down on paper or canvas. i also need to keep blogging on a daily basis. no more slacking there either! im pretty sure thats it for my revolutions.. at least so far. i think its a pretty good start tho!

see you later 2009.. hello, 2010!
viva la revolución! ;p [that ones just for you, lol.. well us, but ya know.]

For last year’s words belong to last year’s language.
And next year’s words await another voice.
And to make an end is to make a beginning.
T.S. Eliot

we talked about him for a good portion of the time. mainly because i was talking about my england trip and telling her some of the things we have planned. plus, i wanted to let her know what a great guy he is because i dont want her to be worried about it. even tho i know she will be cause shes my ma and thats her job. im sure before i even head overseas ill set it up so she can talk to him and at least see hes normal. well, normal might be pushing it, lol ;p

i also was telling her about the graphic design site that im slowly in the process of setting up. i was explaining to her what i wanted to do and to my surprise she said she can get me in touch with someone who basically has done the same thing. her friends sister started her own business from home and now has a successful business doing it. so im going to be getting her number this week and seeing if she can help me along in starting my own.. and possibly, if she ever had too much work could maybe pass some off to me.. im not holding my breath on that one, but it would be cool if she did.i might see if i can get an email instead. im kind of shy and i think its easier for me to organize my thoughts in an email rather than try to talk on the phone, at least at first anyway. and i say that in hopes of being able to start networking with her. shes been in the business so im hoping she can help me get my foot in the door. so, fingers crossed!

speaking of feet, check out my new shoesies. yea, i said shoesies. you wont get it and never will so dont try, lol. just know we know and thats all that matters. anyway, my new shoes are the shit. there are two other pairs that i got, but havent worn yet. those ones are my favorite. the best part about them is that they will look brand new for years! being in a chair does have its ups occasionally, lol. alright, its off to bed for me. i have designs to mess with tomorrow and possibly add some products to our site. ;D for now.. sleepydoodles! and tomorrow onwards and upwards!

The secret of getting ahead is getting started.
Sally Berger