anyway! my brother came into town for today. we havent seen him in over a year. him and i dont get along very well, but a couple moths or so ago i sent him and email. i decided it was time we acted like adults and said that we should be able to get along with one another. something clicked i suppose, when he came into the house today after greeting my ma.. he leaned over and gave me a kiss on the cheek. that has never happened before. ever.

however, he was still a dick to my ma. she gets so excited before he comes into town and then the whole time he has an attitude with her. i know she asks a lot of questions, but its only cause she doesnt talk to him that often and shes trying to find out whats going on with him. i wanna say something to him, but i honestly dont think it will help. its just how he has always been with her. maybe ill send him another email tho and tell him how much it sucks to see her reaction to the way he treats her.

the four of us ended up going out to dinner tonight and i think i did a pretty good job with what i ordered. i even skipped dessert. i wanted it tho, but i knew i didnt need it. and to be honest, it felt kinda good to be able to say, “no thanks”. ive been drinking more water and taking my b12 vitamins in the morning, too. and i had coffee today, which always puts me in a great mood. even with being up since 5:30am, lol. i blame him for that. ;p it was fun tho, i like our morning chats.. well i like any of our chats really. but its a great way to start the day! and end it too lol. i was a chatty cathy today tho, i can get that way and usually when i do it puts me in a silly mood. which, if you ever heard any of our conversations, youd know exactly what im talking about, lol.

during our chats today tho, i was telling him about an mda summer camp i used to go to. once i get started on it, its like i cant stop. he can vouch for that. in talking about it tho, he threw out a great suggestion about networking and trying to set some kind of reunion up once the weather gets nicer. so ill be adding that to my to-do list!

its about that time.. i need some sleep before i pass out on my keyboard. tomorrow is more crocheting, yes im still working on that.. and im going to work more on the art project i started and im going to start looking people up for that camp thing. i love nerding out, lol. its more fun with him, but theres plenty of time for that when he gets off work, yay! ..omg im still rambling, its so my bedtime!

aside from all that.. the crocheting is still goin on, the origami has kinda stopped.. at least for now, im still constantly working on my on-going to-do list. its all a slow progression and it is definitely movin along. im in a good place right now emotionally and mentally.. and it feels absolutely wonderful.

physically, i dont feel like im doing so well. but, i am trying to keep a positive mental attitude about it regardless. its just difficult sometimes. i know i am getting a little weaker than i was.. thats apparent with the falls ive had lately. they really discourage me and scare me. its a hard thing to have to cope with. im already not the strongest and to think that i can get weaker is nerve racking. i like being as independant as possible, but i know i wont be able to as time goes on. thats one of the main reasons im working on losing weight. i know itll help me with my mobility, even if its just a little bit. and with losing weight, i know ill feel more comfortable with myself and with even asking people to help me if i do need it.. plus itll help when i go on my trip overseas eventually. ;D

so, for tomorrow.. more crocheting, yay! and umm.. idk, oh! art. definitely gonna start working on a piece ive been thinking about. and besides that lots of emailing and texts and crocheting and smiles. :)