thats why it gets me so upset when i ask my ma to help me with something and i have to hear about it. like if i ask for her to fix my blankets a certain way.. to her its me being ocd. to me its me trying to get things situated so that if i get cold during the night i can easily pull my blankets up. one of the biggest thing she questions is when im getting into bed, there are certain steps in my routine and they go in that order so im comfortable during the night and dont need to bother her for anything. yes, sometimes i change the steps, thats my prerogative tho. its my routine, im allowed to. when shes helping me, shes my attendant. i shouldnt have to explain why one thing is happening before another. if i switch it up its for a valid reason and thats that. the minute i change something tho she has to start with the questions or if she switched up the routine she thinks thats ok. its not and im not ocd.

ok, im a little ocd. nothing like she claims i am tho. i just wish she could understand what i have to go thru and why things need to be done in certain ways. i know shell never get it tho and i dont know how else to explain it to her. ive tried telling her, she doesnt get it. :/

Frustration, although quite painful at times,
is a very positive and essential part of success.
Bo Bennett