i have to admit tho.. one of the thoughts is my birthday. i mean, yes i should be happy about it and all that jazz, but at the same time im thinking about last year. im thinking about where him and i were then and where him and i are now. its tough. it upsets me to know how much i hurt him. at the same time tho, i cant help but be beyond happy about the friendship that grew out of it. he makes me a better person. he believes in me and encourages me in everything. and after everything that happened in the past.. hes a friend i honestly dont deserve, but i am so thankful that i have cause i would be lost without him. im not trying to inflate his ego. believe me, he can do that all on his own, lol. its just that when i start thinking about my life and the people in it.. hes definitely at the forefront. he changes my life for the better on the regular and i hope that everyone can find or already has a best friend like him in their life.. just remember hes mine, lol. ;p

anyway, enough of that before he is permanently stuck in the flex position, lol. i dont really know where to go with this post. my mind is still racing and i cant sleep even tho i want to. i have a feeling it might be time for another movie before i attempt this sleep thing again. or ill just go play some bejeweled blitz because im ridiculously addicted to it.

Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind.
“Pooh,” he whispered. “Yes, Piglet?”
“Nothing,” said Piglet, taking Pooh’s paw,
“I just wanted to be sure of you.”
Winnie the Pooh

ps. i miss crossword puzzles, we should do those again. x