elle jay*

i feel bad. today was his last day off and i slept thru it. we were on yahoo voice, but i slept. he even wanted to watch a movie and i slept thru that! i love being able to hang with him and nerd out, but i slept thru it today and it makes me [...]

a little over a month to be exact. sorry for the delay in posts, but this time there is a legitimate reason. unfortunately, its a reason i wish i didnt have. two days after my last post my family received some bad news. it was 2am and i couldnt sleep, neither could he. so we [...]

him and i were talking last night, sometimes i forget how well he knows me and knows when something is wrong. he of course asked and after replying with “nothing” a few times i finally told him i was sad and that i feel like a failure. im going to be twenty-seven in less than [...]

i have a lot of family issues going down. there are some things going on with my brother right now. i dont know how i feel about the whole thing.. my mind is all over the place, tbh. its a lot to deal with tho. it saddens me to be honest to kno whes gotten [...]

..how i feel right now. im sad.. im trying not to be tho. its just a really difficult situation and no ones at fault for anything and no sorries are needed. its just my heart and my head need to come to terms with some stuff and its just not happening.. at least not yet. [...]

i have a lot on my mind right now.. but honestly, my head hurts and im tired. all i wanna do is go to bed and escape in my dreams for a bit before my wake up call.. maybe ill get into whats on my mind tomorrow, maybe not. i dont know, depends on how [...]

i went to the doctor today. i needed to see her cause its mandatory for getting my new wheelchair. shes my new doctor, so being the new kid on the block i had to have the first appointment of the day, 8:30am.. i was up at 5:30am. its been two weeks since i started my [...]