elle jay*

its muggy out, overcast. im expecting it to start raining, to be honest. theres a constant sound of cars and trucks passing by only to be broken up by an inevitable car horn because someone blew the stop sign again, like a cheap $2 hooker. occasionally, you get to hear the high pitched engine of [...]

i dont know what my deal is lately, but as soon as night hits.. all i wanna do is pass the fuck out. i didnt really do anything of interest today. however, i did start watching the lord of the rings this morning at 7am.. and they showed all 3 of them.. so i basically [...]

so ive come to a decision.. i need to rearrange my life. it needs to start with my bedroom. i need to clear out my room and start over with a whole new look. i already know what colors i want and i have a rough idea of what i want it to look like. [...]

i really need to stop falling asleep before im able to blog, lol. anyway, im here now.. thats all that matters! yesterday was a pretty shitty day to be honest. i didnt do much and was just in a blah kinda mood. it was a gorgeous day and all i wanted to do was go [...]

so for the first time ever today.. barring the one time i did it before for less than 15 seconds for the same person.. i went on my webcam. that may not seem like much to most people, but its a big deal to me. i know ive said it before, but im gonna say [...]

i dont even know what to say, but i am unbelievably pissed. this may not mean anything to anyone else… but for anyone thats played secondlife, they know where im coming from. the sim owner where the club is at that i manage and dj at.. he fucked up royally and returned over half our [...]

im so unbelievably tired. i was up again this morning at about 10:30/11. i worked on a couple different designs in photoshop for my stationery and i read for a bit before he got home from lunch. we bullshitted for a bit while i played some music in secondlife. i honestly dont remember it happening, [...]

we got into it today. she was supposed to come help me early today so we could go out and do some stuff and she didnt get up until 4:15pm. i was beyond pissed. i wish i could have recorded the conversation. some stuff she said was just unbelievable. like when she said “you dont [...]

carry on your baggage, we can tolerate the turbulence,
just promise that the pressure in the cabin isnt permanent..
i got up this morning at 11:30am. the earliest ive been up in a long time. called my grams, she rambled for thirty mins. i love her. i gave my ma the card i made her, she asked [...]

i need a new caregiver. today it was 3:15pm.. after repeated calls. she always says, “i can get up when i have something to do..”. apparently helping me doesnt count as something to do. she can get up fine for other things, tho. i know shes one of my best friends, but if shes gonna [...]

same shit different day. i didnt do much today. i was in bed until late in the afternoon again. i did however build some stuff in secondlife which im quite pleased with. ive also become very good at photoshop. i worked on my art piece after i got out of bed as well.. its looking [...]

i dont know what happened to that energy i had last week. it seems to have disappeared and because of that ive fallen twice in the last two days. its really frustrating. i dont know how to put into words exactly how frustrating it is. but when i do fall, it pretty much drains me [...]

so, im feeling the creative energies flowing.. i have so many ideas running thru my head that im finding it kinda hard to grab on to any one in particular. i know i wanna finish the piece i started already and i wanna work on the three canvas one for him. i already have a [...]

-precursor- im fuckin high.
hello, my name is elle jay and im officially a blogger. yes, today is my one month.. yay! i never thought id be so into it. but to be honest, whether its just random chatter or actually pouring my heart out.. i love it. i like being able to share my thoughts [...]

so, my day started off fucking with graphics for his website. ive made about nineteen versions of the logo. hes anal, lol. its ok tho, i like it. ive learned more about photoshop from working on stuff for him than i ever would have imagined. ive had the stupid program for about a year, maybe [...]