ive been workin on some of my art and figuring out some stationery designs. so i cant wait to see where i can go with those.. besides that i havent been doing much, just lots of sleep and brainstorming… im off for now tho ;p more tomorrow, promise!

im not gonna lie. i miss falling alseep on voice with him. it was always nice to fall asleep with someone or if i woke up in the middle of the night, id hear him snoring or just breathing in general and id drift back to sleep. the best was when hed roll over a certain way and the mic would be in such a spot that you could hear his heartbeat. it was a rarity for it to happen, but when it did.. it was so soothing i could pass out almost immediately.

we both ended up falling asleep tonight on voice. i had to go for a few to get ready for bed and when i got back on here the voice call had ended. sometimes i hate secondlife, lol. so now were both on here, but not on voice. kinda sucks. normally, before id call and wake him up so he could reconnect the call, but i know he was tired and i didnt wanna wake him up. im just kinda hopin he wakes up on his own and reconnects it, lol. im sure by then ill have passed out. ive already fallen asleep 3 different times while trying to type this!

today was another day without any fighting with my ma. it was also another day that passed without my friend calling me. it kinda pisses me off and i feel like if i dont call her, we arent going to talk. i just dont want to give in like that tho. especiallt knowing i didnt do anything wrong. i just wish she would realize that shes in the wrong and actually own up to it and apologize for it so this can all be in the past. who knows when thatll happen tho.. or if it will.

i got to use that scarf he got me today. i was freezing and wanted to put on something warmer. i also didnt want to have to call anyone upstairs to help me.. i tried putting on my zip up hoodie, but just didnt have the strength to do it. i sat there being cold for a good fifteen minutes before i realized i had the scarf to use. i love it. its perfect and i dont need help putting it on, which is even better. also, it smells like that cologne i got him.. another plus. its seriously my favorite scarf and not just cause he got it for me.. i love the material and the color, too.

i seriously keep passing out while i type this and have to keep rereading it to know where my train of thought was going. i think its about time i just go to bed, lol. i have to be up in a bit for his morning wake up call too.. so sleeping before that will be nice. as for me for tomorrow.. im going to keep up with the stationery stuff, maybe work on some art, read.. and i dont know what else. its memorial day, so there might be a bbq.. im not sure tho. oh! and.. just one more day til i get my stuff from nutrisystem! yay!.. thats what else ill try to get done tomorrow, having my dad move that exercise thing up to my room.. hopefully hell do that. who knows if he will tho. ;p

i searched all of craigslist for jobs today and im pretty sure ive been through all that i can and sent my resume into everyone i thought i could do. now its just a matter of waiting for replies, which lets be honest.. probably wont happen. its fine though. i need to get my shit together and start my own business. stationery. i need to start that shit. i have all the ideas in my head, but as soon as i go to sketch them out for the cards and stuff its like my mind goes blank and all i end up doing is staring at the page for ever. its annoying. id like to do something with the photo shop.. maybe i can come up with stuff on there and then figure out how to get it onto the cards/stationery afterwards.

im still reading my book. i know i said id get little book reports, but i think once im done ill just give a little overall report on it. i was never really good at book reports anyway. even my favorite book that ive read literally 83 times.. i still have trouble explaining what happens in it. and i love that book. the book by the way is called she’s come undone, its by wally lamb. by far the best book i have ever read. written by a guy about a woman through her point of view from the age of four to forty. its just amazing and this may sound weird, but by the time i was finished with it that first time.. which only took 1.5 days to read 480 pages i believe… i felt like she was one of my very best friends. i laughed and cried along with her. its the first book i was ever able to relate to. i never understood what my teachers were talking about until i read it four years after high school, lol.

i feel like im all over the place with my thoughts. i had such a bad migraine and it has just drained me off all the my energy. im having my dad bring up this exercise thing we have in the basement, so i can start workin with that. i have no idea where we are going to put it, but it will be brought up. im excited to start using it again, its been awhile. itll definietely help me with the losing weight issue. which im still working on.. so far, so good.

i feel like im about to pass out, so im going to get some sleep and tomorrow work on some more shit.. what? im not sure of yet.. but im sure itll be something. and i get to talk to him tomorrow!! yay! and im sure ill read and fuck about on craigslist more and start working on designs for my stationery in photoshop. ;D