so my folks were gone for the past week, my sleep schedule [if you can really even call it that] got very messed up as a result. that, in addition to not feeling 100% has caused a lack in posting, which i apologize for, lol. tho i doubt the one or two readers who do read this really cared. well, i take that back, i know for a fact one did. lol, but lets be honest, hes probably the only one who checks it at least once a day. anyway, i digress. no more slacking is what it boils down to.

with them being gone i really thought there would be some fun things to report back, there isnt. i didnt do anything that i wanted to this past week. no tattoo, no shopping, no sending his early prezzies.. nothing. just sleep, tv, and herbs. a friend that normally doesnt stay with me did. and i understand she did also have to work during the day, but i dont know.. i guess i figured we could still go do things. im actually quite bummed we didnt. shit happens i suppose.

we did go out day and i got to see her apartment and then we met up with some friends of ours for dinner. i got to see their new baby, shes adorable! after dinner we went to barnes and noble, two different ones. i got myself a nice little address book and shes supposed to pick up something else for me when her discount kicks in. oh and also that night we went to the bar. the quietest bar in world! seriously. we were the only ones there. it was kind of lame.

i think the highlight of the week was getting a package in the mail from him. he had shown me a site before called neuron rebellion and then he had me go back to it again, this time to pick out one of the art dolls. they are a symbol of determination and inspiration and all those other positive ‘-tion’ words. not to mention they are freakin adorable. the story of how the dolls came about is reason enough to check out the site, which is linked above or in the side bar. so, he had me pick. after he explained what it would represent i thought it was only fitting to get marco & polo, the only ones on the site sold together.

according to the blurb about them they are mirror twins and hate being separated. they feed off each others energy and are a blast to be around [just like us, lol.. im very modest, hes humble, haha]. i was excited to get them, they are oh so very cute. we are however going to be separating them. itll be ok, marco is going to a good home and can talk to polo anytime via the internet and his microphone, lol.

polo, is gonna help me stay on track. weve already had a discussion. yes, i talked to a stuffed sock basically. what of it? this is an important year with lots of changes to be made. i cant afford to veer off track. i need to stay determined and focused, pushing away negative thoughts and people and embracing the positive. its hard, but then again it makes the ending even better. the best part is, it wont even be an ending.. itll just be the beginning. this year is just the warm up!

Determination gives you the resolve to keep going
in spite of the roadblocks that lay before you.
Denis Waitley

i have to admit tho.. one of the thoughts is my birthday. i mean, yes i should be happy about it and all that jazz, but at the same time im thinking about last year. im thinking about where him and i were then and where him and i are now. its tough. it upsets me to know how much i hurt him. at the same time tho, i cant help but be beyond happy about the friendship that grew out of it. he makes me a better person. he believes in me and encourages me in everything. and after everything that happened in the past.. hes a friend i honestly dont deserve, but i am so thankful that i have cause i would be lost without him. im not trying to inflate his ego. believe me, he can do that all on his own, lol. its just that when i start thinking about my life and the people in it.. hes definitely at the forefront. he changes my life for the better on the regular and i hope that everyone can find or already has a best friend like him in their life.. just remember hes mine, lol. ;p

anyway, enough of that before he is permanently stuck in the flex position, lol. i dont really know where to go with this post. my mind is still racing and i cant sleep even tho i want to. i have a feeling it might be time for another movie before i attempt this sleep thing again. or ill just go play some bejeweled blitz because im ridiculously addicted to it.

Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind.
“Pooh,” he whispered. “Yes, Piglet?”
“Nothing,” said Piglet, taking Pooh’s paw,
“I just wanted to be sure of you.”
Winnie the Pooh

ps. i miss crossword puzzles, we should do those again. x